Is this Me

IS THIS REALLY ME

I don't knw what happened to me, i was a girl who was not afraid to do anything. ooh i think afraid is not the correct word here. i think i feel uncomfortable, invisible, unknwn fear, Hinuthanavas..dot dot dot

I just remembered that one of the old school series , there was this line the dad told to his daughter "NOT TO DO ANY THING WHICH MAKES U FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE"

What am gonna say is when i think of doing something here in Delhi , my step goes back instead of going forward. When i was in male' i go to places alone, shopping and all, if there is no 1 to go with me, and do loads of things. It free of fear But now i cant even go out of house alone ,even to the park nearby . I dont knw Y?

Next month am move to a new house with my kokko. We are gonna live as a small family. The house is big and am kinda uncomfortable. I wanted a big house and make that place really nice and live a nice life. But some how these fear is there.
The fear of like " what to do in case of robbery , What to do when 1 of us get sick in midnight...??then Blaa blaa"

"What the F... thinking is this.. I can do it . I can live alone. am not afraid"

I always wanted to live in my own house with own rules and now am hesitating. What is this? IS this really me? After coming here am really changed. I dont knw what happened. This is not me.

My own

My own hand made cards






Hope U guys like these. I made this for college NNS clearance, Its kinda society service thing.pics are not clear and nice cos its kadavaa phone akun negyma.

I have being thinking

I have being thinking
When eva i think of writing some thing to publish here , I think about it thousand time.I have a kinda hidden fear about what will readers think abt it. I knw i can talk about any thing, what i think about some thing BUT, What will happen if people get wrong meaning of what i have written. So far i have written only about me, but i wanna write what i think about certain topics BUT can't, Cos of fear or may be am not a general topic writer.......hehe

Normally I say i don't care about what people think about me or say about me. But most of the time, i end up not doing a thing thinking what will people think abt it . Some time I do thing which i desire, not thinking much . After doing that i don,t regret , i say i don't care what ppl say or think. But some where in my mind that thing is there, if it is a immoral , really not immoral ,kinda not acceptable things ( some silly things) i keep on thinking why did i did that, or why did i say it... Thats funny

UNSTABLE

UNSTABLE

why is that some time we feel like,Our heart is unstable. going to come out from the chest.
It keep on beating fast, and person is hurt , sad, lot of worries in mind or heart. I don knw which part is effected, may be whole body.

I dont knw what to call to a situation like this..?

It is even so difficult to explain whats going on.
Every thing you see is boring, noting seems to be right,
If u try to do some thing it goes wrong.
You don't knw where U are any more.
You can spend like hours with out talking staring at same spot.
Feel like going some where , where u get fresh air, want to be fresh,
But You can't go that, if you go also , it doesn't feel good. Its not the right thing.
Feel like hitting the body, can't do that cos it will be pain full.
Feel like shouting , cant do that also, cos of the ppl around us.

Well, a time like this what to do..... ??
Yesterday i felt like this, may be worse then this,i have described. I spend hours changing the channel on TV. Went out , but no success. Then spend some time listening to music but memories cam running, Then i slept but it was a sleep less night

Random questions..???????

Random questions..???????

1)Why do evry Maldivian write male' as there hometown in FB information part..???

2)Why is that Indian's keep cows, or goat what eva on road...???
3)Why is that old ppl colour there hair in red...???
4)why do ppl turn in to lesbo and gays...???

5)Why do friends hide things , saying that they don't want to ruin the relation???

6)Why do boys ask for girls number from others?Why can't they ask from that girl there number???

7)Why is that in this world its all about money???
8)Why do ppl keep which do not belong to them..???

Hey 4 these questions i need an ans.... a funny one give me some pls..:D

I LOST IT

Can u imaging i lost my phone. I just bought it the other month. How can i be so stupid to leave it behind in an Auto. Am so angry to my self, It hurts ooh it hurts to loose some thing u dreamed to get and after getting it u loose it.

"Stupid, careless, horrible , Silly...................... ME"

Well, gellunu echche aburaa na annaane, BUT I wish to get it back, May it happen for the best. May be i deserve a better one. "bullshit". Am just saying this to make me feel better.

Let me tell u what s the other stupid thing i do... I write a thing here and never check it and post. just post. when i read it after like one day i see loads of mistakes. "Stupid me".. Can u imagin how many mistakes i will do in my exam.." hahaha"

well.!!!
"E phone mage echchaka vefakaa nei, emmefurathama gai thana memory card massala, then it had being giving me headaches after i bought it BUT i feel so bad that i lost it"
"GUD BYE MY PHONE"

1st time 2 to a museum

This bird looks so nice, made in iron or wood
i dont kw cant touch cose it was in a glass boss ..
hehe, i wonder Y..??

Meethi masha vatharu vee, dhufaa echchehi alhaa echchaka
but its some thing used for smoking yooooooooo!!!!!

This is how inside look like, it was a big place,
i had loads of ques in my mind,
what to do i didn't have a tourer guide..hehe

LOSt and found things,,, aharumenge rashuge moodhun
libe kahala echchehi... wonder Y ..!!!
May be kuree zamaan ga maa mashoor echchakee thochche..!!!

Some brand of cooking pan

I went there with my frnd (grl..i had to mention this because of the previous post) At fist it was boring but when i saw painting , thats part was interesting,,, well i could not get a paint pic, camera e vadhanna emeehun charg kure viyya so took some pics frm phone.

A note frm a friend..

"Just in case there will be no tomorrow
and today is the only day we have to tell
our friends how much they mean to us,
Just know that your precious.

If i could pull down the rainbow
i would write your name on it and
put it back in the sky , to tell every
one how colorful My life is with a
friend like U.."

"I just dont wanna be in a relation"

Well this is a very common answer from us girl to a boy ... right!!!
" I JUST DONT WANT TO BE IN A RELATIONSHIP"

wow!!! it a really cool answer.

Most of the time grl says that because they like the guy really and they dont want to loose him as a friend. you knw what happens when 2 friends goes in to a relation what happen is - sooner or later they will get breakup and their friendship also will go (most of the cases) and blaa blaa. Some time grls say so because they afraid or scared to say that they dont like him, its not because he is gonna hit her to any thing, grls are just afraid to hurtsome one.

ok here is the story of this topic

" Recently a grl and a boy met some where and they exchanged there numbers. After that they started to msg each other and call. They even met in a MUSEUM. ( Well the boy gave a choice of Travelling, cofy and a movie. She choosed travelling then he gave a choice of museums,park, mall ..etc. she chose museum.. (hehe.. quite funy haa)) ok she was confused.Then they had a good time in there second meet and they are gud friends and they 2 like each other. Then after some days , this grl seems worried. The reason is she dont want to be in a relation, It not that he asked or any thing, but there is a chance. and she dont want to loose her."

Thats all. hope u liked my this real life story.

PS: Its not me

Real!!!!!!!

Friends.........???

Who do u concider to be ypur friend.??

Who can be your best friend..??

Its not that i have this quiestions.. but i want just to write them. To get a friend you dont have to have ans 4 these quiestion, Friends come 2 ur life naturally.

Reason for writting this post is this:

"I got hurt today... i feel so stupid and wired... Am not here to tell the whole story. my friend , the so close one, told me truth , she havent said befor thinking that , it might riun our relation. She havent lied and she havent betrayed or done any thing , she just kept quite of something, to make me happy and she was praying for me.

Thats not a bad thing, i think she done good, but the wired thing was i thought she was my side, and she understands me, any way she was bt not whole heartedly, cos there was some thing i dont and she knw"

Dose thos one has a twist..?? wht a questionn dhooo. hehe..ok then wrote it like 2 days ago and was thinking of a heading couldnt got a gud one.

Things to Note

This is the msgs frm my vodafone company.

"There is no Substitute to hard work and there is no short cut to succes"

"A bend in the road is not the end of the road unless you fail to make the turn"

"Develop the attitude that there are more reasons why you should succeed than reason why you should fail"

"Start a new today because with each new sunrise there can be found a new way"

"If you want to be successful, you must be willing to be uncomfortable,, success is not by chance it is a planned event"

"Dont let this day pass without doing something to make your dreams come true"