IS THIS REALLY ME
I don't knw what happened to me, i was a girl who was not afraid to do anything. ooh i think afraid is not the correct word here. i think i feel uncomfortable, invisible, unknwn fear, Hinuthanavas..dot dot dot
I just remembered that one of the old school series , there was this line the dad told to his daughter "NOT TO DO ANY THING WHICH MAKES U FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE"
What am gonna say is when i think of doing something here in Delhi , my step goes back instead of going forward. When i was in male' i go to places alone, shopping and all, if there is no 1 to go with me, and do loads of things. It free of fear But now i cant even go out of house alone ,even to the park nearby . I dont knw Y?
Next month am move to a new house with my kokko. We are gonna live as a small family. The house is big and am kinda uncomfortable. I wanted a big house and make that place really nice and live a nice life. But some how these fear is there.
The fear of like " what to do in case of robbery , What to do when 1 of us get sick in midnight...??then Blaa blaa"
"What the F... thinking is this.. I can do it . I can live alone. am not afraid"
I always wanted to live in my own house with own rules and now am hesitating. What is this? IS this really me? After coming here am really changed. I dont knw what happened. This is not me.
9 comments:
where are you exactly
hmmm...
i dont think it is anything to be worried about.. thouse thoughts and the lack of comfort just might be the fear within u. a fear that was created long before unconsciously. when u on the tv u would always hear india that, india this, millions killed, robbed bla bla..
and to overcome this, all u need to do is face the fear. even with hesitations do what u want to do. and of course with caution :) tc
dnt woree dear, it will go away.. :)
its jst a temporary one:) keep cool
maybe you are hesitating coz you have got no one to support you saying that everything is fine
or maybe coz its just a big change
don't worry, coz after a few days it'll be better, i mean the whole new house thing
It natural...its the change that yu are scared..not the situation itself..
we are so comfortable in how things used to be that wen it changes we paniks...but it will pass
as for the robbery and stuff...if it were to happen...it will happen anywhere
=)
this post makes you sound like you are so immature. everyone has to grow up someday. Now's a good time for you to make a new attempt at it.
dont worrie sis(i called u sis cause u are older than me) i am sure u are good think negetive not positive than everythn wyl be better than now too.. and nuthn in wrong with u your just gr8
hey hey hey...u benn living there for a while nw..ur a big girl am sure that u can handle this..ofcause moving to new house/neigbourhood might be a lil uneasy but am sure u will adapt to it..no worries..:D
hmmm. initially moving to a new house in your circumstance can make you worry. i understand.In your position you have much responsibility to handle. But i am sure if you are ready to take such a responsibility you will overcome your fear within few days.
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