Some thing's are lacking

Komeves echche madhu hen heevanee , ruk ge life ga .. don't know what it is it .. but i can feel it .It is so difficult to carry on life if this feeling of lacking is there. Alhe kihine baa mi vanee. y cant i be the laughing, smiling , always joyful ruk... Now a day am like a dead man. Head is always full of lot of nothing. Am trying to enjoy, keep those thinking's aside, but it seems like those thing are not gonna leave me. Like a megnatic they are comming after me. when ever am alone, it takes my whole mind and nothing is left for me to be happy or to smile , even to be Sad. Some time i feel like crying ..but for What ....??? No reason to cry ... Some time i feel like laughing or smile ... but for what ...??? No reason for this too. I don't even know what am thinking.......???? What is bothering me.....??? I dont have a clue..... Is some thing gonna happen...??? If it is what sort of thing....??? is that a happy thing or sad thing....???? ooooooooh my my ..... lot of questions..??? How to get answer for these question...??? I guess the time will tell me ...right..!!!!!! but when.....???